** Relinquishing solitude **

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Current mood: Happy but aimless

I will geddit, I won't geddit..

This no doubt is a "I will get it!". Haha..Ppl who dun know what the hell I'm up to, I'm informing clueless folks that I'm getting the Creative Zen Micro, even though the website runs a handful of negative reviews abt it..I've searched online and evidently there are more positive than negative reviews, therefore I'm at ease, and am going ahead with my decision..A few days ago i was just having a terrible headache trying to figure out what color I wanted, since ppl say white stuffs will turn yellowish in the long run, but heck ah, white is so pretty that I can't possibly let go of it haha...

Well anyway I just quitted the job as an arts admin, dun ask me why..Ppl there are taking me for granted, like I should be the one doing all the stuffs..Duties that ranges from admin, to marketing of their upcoming sculpture carnival, website maintenance and database are all done by me..Hey c'mon, I'm doing work that could be divided among a few ppl ok? They basically throw everything to me, as if I'm the one supposed to do everything and they just sit there n stare at the com screen doing god-knows-what for the whole day..Well I got my pay n ran off haha..Though I know it's a truly irresponsible behaviour on my part, but their behaviour towards me wasn't that amicable either..So that's fair enough...

I sent a resume over yesterday for the post of a course coordinator, and in the afternoon the guy rang me up..The location's a private sch at Jurong East (I suppose it's BMC) helping applicants source out what course is suitable for them to apply for by comparing their education levels and qualifications with the entry requirements of their desired course..That seems easy enough since there will be training provided and the pay's $1500 per mth..Better than the arts admin pay isn't it? Haha..Anyway nothing's been confirmed yet, since the guy that called me is from a job agency I guess, so he'll forward my resume to my prospective employer and if things go well I can go for an interview on tues..I hope I'll get the job since JE is so close to my hse, I only need to take a bus to reach there..This saves alot on transport fees then...

Well anyway I'm feeling aimless cos I've found out that there's a Bachelor of Arts (Journalism) that I can take up here in sg, an offshore degree that ties up with Monash University, but problem is it's on a part-time basis..So sad..The open house is on next sat and I'll visit I guess, to futher enquire abt my study options..That's so sad ok? Cos TMC's the only private institute that provides the Journalism degree in sg..So what now? I dunno..Aimless, like I've just said...

Fingers dancing ended on 4/30/2005 09:42:00 PM

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Sunday, April 24, 2005

Current mood: Hungry & Hot...

I'm starved, but i rather wait for my bro to help me buy my food downstairs rather than get burned by the sweltering heat that exudes the horizon like devils waiting to set fire on every innocent mortal that passes by...

The weather today is shit, so friggin' humid that I've sworn it was 40 degree celcius when I'm on my way back from work..Not to mention the fact that my entire forehead was streaked with smelly and salty beads of liquid dripping with each passing second when I was merely loosening the screws for the light blulbs in a chapel with 2 aircons on initially..After that period of pure disgustion thinking that as I had just bathed like 2 hrs ago and I'm soaked thru, I went and on all 6 aircons there..That din help much by the way..I was still perspiring and smelling like I've just survived a tragedy of being dumped into the bin centre after work...

Therefore, here I am, seeking escapism from the outside world, and within the confines of my own room, with the fan churning out cooling wind at full speed just right behind me, and writing this blog. Ok the above parts were rather lame haha..I had nothing to write about, except maybe announcing to the whole world that I'm gonna get paid next week..Hahaha...

Right, cut the crap and get back to track..Well a few days ago I was just feeling sad, disappointed, cheated, and blah blah..But I had frenz who care and now I feel so much better..Thanks a million, to ppl who've listened to my grunts and everything..The issue of my results was being kicked right back into my subconsciousness now, and I dun even think abt it haha...

**The path ahead is yours, and pave it well. Bumps and cracked pavements are inevitable, but do learn to pull urself up when u've tripped over those.**

Meaningful anecdote? This somehow just popped up in my mind, but it's not from my memory of some anonymous person's quote..I wrote this with my own hands..Or whatever haha....

Fingers dancing ended on 4/24/2005 09:30:00 AM

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Friday, April 22, 2005

A day where all devils are ard me...

I was in the cab, silently praying that I won't be late, while staring out into the swooshing buildings and a pool of cars bouncing off the hungry sunlight that desperately wanted to melt into the metals. About 10 minutes into the ride, i felt my hp vibrate in my right jeans pocket..I flipped open my phone, pressed a button, and that was the point in time where the day's most destructive and dampening event descended upon me.

I got a D+ for my fyp...
Well that may seem ok to some ppl, thinking that it's already gd that I have passed. I should say that you are right, partially though. I shifted that thought away from me for that morning, and continued with my daily work routine...

Hours passed and it was then that I decided to ask how my fren had fared, so i texted her. She checked her results and get back to me with the news that she got a B..At this point your eyelids may have started to droop while scanning my boring blog..Well cheer up for the most exciting and intriguing part is abt to unfold...

My so-called fren, had requested that I help her out when I suggested to her that she should do a game instead of an e-comm webby, since she doesn't possess even the slightest idea how to do the coding. So, I told her not to dive into such a risky proj and to do game instead cos it's easier and I'll teach her since she doesn't even know wad's Director initially. I thought we could do together and exchange pointers. Apparently, it's naiveness on my part as days and weeks passes, and with each passing day she's literally relying on me to research on solutions and codes for her. I thought that since I will need the codes as well so why not? So while I buried my nose under thick and bulky IT books to find out solutions to our problems, she just sat there pushing and moving her mouse, drawing out her characters using paint..Was she totally relying on me to help her pass or did she really not know anything about codes?I've asked myself that a hundred times, and for ur info yours truly suck in coding as well, but I tried my level best to understand the codes that's making my head spin everytime I look at it..My pal Reg can vouch for my stupidity in programming I guess...

I've tried hard, harder than what I've done for the past 2.5 yrs slacking in poly. I don't mind backpacking a laptop looking like a tortoise and borrowing yet another thick book from the sch library for research purposes and would gladly trudge hm in my 3kg bag and maybe another 0.5kg of book..Now, tell me, why did i do all that for? I wanted a nice transcript, for heaven's sake..Ppl who know me knows that I hate carrying heavy stuffs, and wouldn't even bring a bag out if it serves no purpose...

N I helped her out cos she seems so helpless, I feel that I have the responsibility to do something abt it, since we're both under the same supervisor..To think when I told her my grade, she simply brushed it off with something like "Oh dun be too sad, maybe cos u had too many errors that's why u did badly"...Hello, doesn't she hv any errors? N who helped her solve all her errors during testing? Who was the one who kept bugging me to help her out when she can't seem to handle all the errors that's hindering her work schedule? I even took time out to help her source out other alternatives when her codes aren't working, and left my own work undone, and hence I'm way behind schedule. I din do all that I did to deserve a D+ okay?Is it even funny that I helped someone out using my own brains while she did nothing and the conclusion is that the person who did nothing got all the credits? Her scope of the proj is also much smaller and easier than mine, alright? Why is she the one deserving all that praise when the person behind all her work is ME? And to think she din even let me in on what she did for her report when she zapped the whole report of a former student and practically stealed the ideas from there..How nice...

I'm just ranting ok? Dun feel sorry for me..I just wanna make my feelings known, of how it feels like to be cheated..Cheated of my kindness and patience towards her when she kept tugging on my sleeves and begging me to help her out. (now the "begging" is just an expression, it's too far-fetched. What she did was to take me for granted ONLY...) I swear nv to help a stranger out again..Well did I mention that I din even know her b4 this proj started? It's not like she's my best pal in poly or what..SO why did I help her in the first place? Nice qn..I shall ponder over that...

Fingers dancing ended on 4/22/2005 12:01:00 PM

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Monday, April 18, 2005

Everything that I should report abt...

My laptop's in the process of repairing..It's been so long and the damned guy is still hogging my com..Think he called on thurs n my bro took the call since I'm not in, and asked him all sorts of shit like whether wanna repair other parts besides the speaker..Obviously either IBM is too hard up to earn ppl's money or the guy's too free, cos those other parts he told my bro abt apparently needs money to be repaired as it's not covered under the warranty, cos it's physical damage..The stupid thing is he asked if my bro wanted to repair the screen which has a small dot, and that alone will cost 400 bucks..OMG!!

The funny and ironic thing is, I can't even spot the small dot that he presumed. He even dare to say that the small dot can't be seen by the naked eye, so why is he calling and asking whether we wanna repair or not? A sane human being wouldn't part with 400 bucks to repair this teeny weeny lil' dot that doesn't cause ur com any harm or hinder u from operating the com, ya? For ur info my bro took the laptop to repair on tues, and it's 5 days since i've not seen it..Even the time it took them to repair my LCD screen wasn't so long..N guess what? The repair person called my bro and told him he'll be on leave..Which i guess that's y it took so long and my com's not back yet..Furious abt it..Poor customer service..Can't he just send it to singpost b4 he flee off for his leave?

Oh well..Abt my job, it's basically just those silly admin stuffs, like calling up of schools to ask if they wanna participate in the upcoming Sculpture Carnival, an arts event for kids from 4-12 yrs of age..Generally I finished calling those, like a few hundreds of schools..Duh..N now gonna contact those volunteer performers to confirm if they wanna participate n book timings and dates with them..Super boring..Anyway went for an interview yesterday for the post of an IT instructor..So what the job is abt is basically to teach at MOE schools, like pri or sec schs..I quite like the idea n the interviewer told me to wait till next wk when he recruited enuf staffs, which he will then organise a mass briefing for us..I hope i can land up with this job and hopefully get a generous pay for it haha..Daydreaming again...

What else? Ok abt the story I wrote..Hmm I'm still stuck at that point where I showed you, reg..Haven't really had time to write since my daily routine is to go home, eat, bathe, watch an hr of TV (9pm), and sleep..Piggy haha..Anyway the deadline for submission is end of May..forgot it's 23 or 28 of May haha..I'll c how first..N reg can u pls comment on my new blog instead of the old one? Haha...

Well shuyi it's not that I don't wanna change the color for the text in the comment box, but it's a third-party program and i've configured the colors for it..All works well except the text color..I've actually changed it but it doesn't change in my blog..Dun ask me y..The day i put this tagboard up i've actually asked one of my frenz to test it in her browser and it shows white textfield n black words..While for mine is black textbox (which is what i wanted) and black words too (which i've actually configured it to blue)..Heck lah when ya typing the words just highlight it to make sure u din misspell it haha...

That's all folks guess i've typed alot of shit already..Check back next weekend for more updates n gossips haha...

Fingers dancing ended on 4/18/2005 06:55:00 AM

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Monday, April 11, 2005

Boring...

Boo!! My blog's so empty with no post..

Haiz..It's quite sad to move to a new blog cos u hv to blog like a hundred times to get that satisfaction that ur blog isn't that empty and dull anymore haha..

Well I'm just waiting for time to pass to watch the NKF Charity Show haha so I thought I'll just blog abit..

Bored man sunday is gonna end, and tmr is work day again..Gotta wake up early and trudge myself to work when my eyes aren't even fully-operative and vision-wise yet haha..Not to mention my half-dead brain where I can't even remember or register information or instructions given to me..Haha...

How good to be a student..Ppl always say it's best to be schooling..I now fully grasp the true meaning behind it...

Enjoy ur school days to the fullest, that's what I can say..I do hope I can be a once again be student in a year's time...

Patiently waiting for it and for more money to start rolling in..Guess I should save up most of my pay instead of spending it unnecessarily. Though that's what I'm always thinking, I never seem to fulfil that mere thought..How un-controllable of me not to sort out my finances properly..Though I dun hv much finances to speak of haha...

Fingers dancing ended on 4/11/2005 09:58:00 AM

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Sunday, April 10, 2005

Woo Hoo!!

Hey guys new bloggy here..Take note!! Haha...

Fingers dancing ended on 4/10/2005 07:05:00 AM

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