Sunday, February 12, 2006
A very tough decision...
Should I continue working in StarHub after school commences in May or should I quit and get another part-time job that's less demanding and stressful? I've already visited MDIS to clear all my doubts abt the course, and according to the Programme Consultant, the part-time course has contact hours of 3 days in a wk, with 2 weekdays and 1 weekend (Sat), time is from 7-10pm. I can actually still continue with my full-time job in StarHub, since I knock off at 6pm. But personally I think that it's gonna be very draining. I've tot of discussing things with my supervisor, to change my shift to part-time and to work 3 days in a week when I dun hv classes, but I'm not sure if this is the best option.
Firstly, I dun need to spend time sourcing for another job opportunity. However, sometimes it seems like I'm not recognised for my job efforts, and even though I'm a temp staff, never for a moment did I consider myself as just a temp staff and that I can slack or perform poorly at my job without being reprimanded. I give my best in the job, not trying to impress or whatever, but just to make sure that I do my job and do it well. I've been told that I churn out good productivity and that my writing skills are good as well, but besides that somtimes I get arrowed without any reason. There's been a few occasions whereby my team leader told me I did something wrong, and demanded an explanation as to why I didn't check things properly before executing it. Well, after some form of double checking, it was confirmed that I was not the one who handled the case, but my team mate. I dunno how they can any old how accuse ppl without checking properly, and it's like sometimes I didn't even handle that case b4, so why did they just point a finger at me without opening their eyes to see?
Well, it may be because I'm the only gal in the team and that they are MCPs, who think only gals will make such careless mistakes. Or it may be that because I'm new, so they automatically put the blame on me 1st. Sometimes I just let such incidents pass, but when thinking back, it's rather hurting.
My contract's ending soon, and I have a choice of whether to leave or to stay. Should I stay, or leave then? Maybe u guys can gimme some sound advice into this, as bystanders point of view are usually the most unbiased and objective.
Fingers dancing ended on 2/12/2006 12:45:00 PM
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Sunday, February 05, 2006
Insights into Life and Death
What exactly is Life? And what is Death? I guess there would be no further need to explain the meaning of "Life", as every human being living on Earth would probably tell you about their encounters, how tough their life had been or how carefree it is to be living off a silver spoon. Now let's touch on "Death" then.
Death in itself is a scary word already, not to mention experiencing it yourself, and I am sure 100% of the human population is afraid of death, regardless of whether you are living in luxury or poverty, whether you have an angelic or devilish heart. Now, the thing is, have any of you ever wondered what really will happen after you breathe your last breath on Earth? Will you be banished to Hell cos of your unfavourable character or doings? Or will be be invited to Heaven cos you've been a goody all your life? Will you be reincarnated? Or will you vanish into thin air after the cremation process has ended, along with your soul? Or will you be kept tight in an urn, never to be let out? All these are just a figment of my imagination, of the various scenarios that will happen after a person's life on Earth has ended. But somehow I really wonder if all these rumours about ghosts and such are true. I would also like to know whether we ourselves will be aware that we have died upon death, or it is just that we'll just disappear from the face of Earth after the funeral procession is over. Another thing, does the "other" world really exist?
Let's talk about reincarnation first. It's been said that Life and Death is part of the human's cycle, and that upon death, we'll get reincarnated into another family and live life once again. The cycle will then continue until the end of time. However, on a scientific level, a baby is born from the merger of the sperm and the egg between partners, and gradually after 9 months, the baby's limbs will all be fully developed, waiting to be delivered to Earth. So I don't see how the reincarnation process fits in at all. Unless to say reincarnation means to instill a soul into all these new babies, but which I think is not.
We have gotten alot of silly ideas about how Heaven and Hell will look like, due to dramas and such influencing our thoughts. However, in our subconsciousness, what do we really believe in? I'm sure there are people who will swear that those "things" really exist, cos they've seen or felt it, but can it be that they're too paranoid or that their eyes are playing tricks on them cos they're too tired? There might also be a group of people who thinks that it's silly to believe in paranormal stuffs, and that those people spreading around ghostly hauntings to their friends have nothing better to do.
Well, let's lay the mystery down to peace first. We'll all know the truth on the day we sleep inside a coffin. Touch wood after reading the previous line hehe..Well I've always wondered about what will we be after death, and whether we'll really wander around like lost souls, or scaring innocent folks, so I've decided to put it down in words..Anyway, been a long time since I've blogged, and it seems like a good enough topic to debate about..Hehe...
Fingers dancing ended on 2/05/2006 07:22:00 PM
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